trying not to burst into tears at work nbd
this is so hard it’s like I’m all foggy and there’s this constant feeling of there being this gaping hole in my chest and it physically hurts
I’m really incredibly fucking sick of being disappointed by most of the people in my life on a regular basis. Whether it’s a big thing like being effectively abandoned by people I thought were my family or something as insignificant as someone canceling plans because it was even the slightest bit inconvenient for them it just never seems to stop and I end up with another night with nothing to do and no one to be with and I need to just deal with it because I’m always going to encounter people like that but it just makes me feel so worthless and I hate it.
And people wonder why I get so obsessive about music well music doesn’t shun you forever and not let you see people you love because it’s mad at your mother when it was the one being a narcissistic asshole in the first place that’s why.
“We’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing.” - Charles Bukowski
I had no idea it was going to turn out quite so red but I may as well go with it
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Florence Welch for Harper’s Bazaar JUl 2012
(Source: , via glittertomb)